Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts

Saturday, December 9, 2023

Christmas Sonata - Chapter 1


 

“I’m going to say it one more time, man. A Christmas album is the best option for you.” Ozi North leaned back in his desk chair looking relaxed, but Matthew knew that the music producer was frustrated with him. After his slip in an interview, his sales had dropped and then continued in a downward trend. To make matters worse, people had started a #boycottMatthewWhittier campaign on social media urging people not to listen to any of his music.

Matthew propped his right ankle on his left knee and sighed. “You know that isn’t going to happen, Ozi. I can’t do it.”

Ozi shook his head. “You are bound and determined to be the martyr in this situation, but this is the mess you got yourself into. I’m offering you a way out, but you refuse to take it.” He leaned forward, placing his elbows on his black desk. “No one even wants to talk about supporting your next album. Your other option is to take a sabbatical and pray to God that one day what you said will be forgiven and forgotten so that you can make music again.”

Matthew ran a hand down his face. A year ago, he had been one of the top selling Christian artists in the nation. Crowded arenas had sung his songs with him in worship. Churches regularly used his songs for their worship time. Now, no one wanted to hear from him at all.

“How long can they hold a grudge? It’s not like I committed some serious sin! All I said was that there was nothing worth celebrating at Christmas.” Even as he repeated it, he didn’t see anything wrong with what he said. Christmas was over-commercialized even within the church. The holiday didn’t even take place during the time of year when Jesus was most likely born. As far as he could tell, that day in December only promoted self, greed, and indulgence.

Ozi sighed, and Matthew took a moment to study the man who had been his mentor and supporter since the beginning of his career. Ozi hadn’t seemed to age a bit in the ten years that they had worked together. His black hair was done in cornrows tight against his scalp. Black glasses framed his brown eyes and he had a goatee. His brown fingers drummed a beat on top of his desk.

“That was only your opening statement,” Ozi reminded Matthew. “If I remember correctly, you started on a tirade that the interviewer had to cut off because you were getting a little too – animated.”

Matthew shrugged. The actual interview was a blur for him, and he had refused to watch it or listen to it after it happened. To be honest, he had thought it would blow over faster than it had.

“I’m entitled to my opinion,” he said folding his arms across his chest.

“You certainly are, but people generally don’t like to be called ‘dumb sheep’ and hear their pastors called ‘wolves’ and ‘false teachers’ for ‘exploiting’ the birth of Jesus for monetary gain.” Ozi looked down at some notes on his desk. “You also said that anyone who bought gifts, had a tree, or listened to Christmas music should question their Christianity, because they were worshiping the gods of commercialism, greed, and comfort.”

While he didn’t remember saying it, Matthew didn’t question that it had happened, because they were thoughts he had often had before. He never went to church during the month of December because of his strong feelings on the subject.

It wasn’t that he didn’t think that the birth of Christ was important. He often read the accounts in the gospels about the nativity, but never in December. It was better to keep it separated from the taint of modern Christmas celebrations.

“It seems like we’re at an impasse,” Matthew finally said. “You think the only way to get back into the good graces of the industry is to do a Christmas album, and I refuse to do that.”

Ozi grinned. “Why not? You could release a new Christmas classic called Why Christmas is Detrimental to Christianity and let’s not forget that great hit, Christmas is for Suckers.”

“I’ve never said that!”

“I believe that was your closing line before the interviewer cut you off,” Ozi said with a chuckle as he looked back down at the transcript. “Yep, here it is. ‘People should wake up and realize that Christmas is for suckers.’ Seems like you were about to go on, but the interviewer had more sense than you did and stopped the interview before you dug your grave any further.”

Matthew frowned. “Okay, I might have gone a little far with that.”

“You think?” Ozi scoffed. “You insulted almost everyone that would support your music. How did you expect them to react? Even the people who tried to support your beliefs did so tentatively and reluctantly because they didn’t want to be seen as supporting you personally after how antagonistic you were. If you genuinely wanted to change the culture, you couldn’t have done it in a worse way.”

“Well, I can’t go back and undo it. I refuse to apologize for my beliefs. There’s no way I’m going to make a Christmas album. So now what?” Matthew felt his stomach twist. He knew that Ozi could very well tell him that he appreciated what he had done, but Glory Records no longer had a place for him there. If it came to that, he didn’t know what his next step would be.

Ozi stood up and came around his desk and perched on the front of it. “I know you well, and I know that you love the Lord dearly. There’s a reason why your music has been so well-received for the past decade. There’s a chance that if you lie low for a little while, you can stage a comeback, but I’d give it at least a year. People have a short memory most of the time.”

“What do I do in the meantime?”

“Write your music like you would normally. You can even use the studio to record it.” Ozi put a hand on Matthew’s shoulder. “You have a God-given ability to express the truths of God in a way that resonates with people. I believe that He has more for you in the future. This is just a little setback. You’ll get through it.”

“Yeah, I can do that.” Matthew was thankful that he had lived modestly and saved most of what he had earned. It seemed like he was going to need that savings for a while.

Ozi smiled. “And if you need a little extra money, you can always teach piano to kids in the neighborhood.”

“I doubt any mothers are going to want me near their children. I might tell them Santa Claus is a myth or that the Easter Bunny isn’t real.” Matthew didn’t even want to get started on that tangent.

With a laugh, Ozi stood up. “Glad to see you can joke about it.”

Matthew got to his feet. Ozi was a good friend, but he was also a busy man. He no doubt had other things to do than deal with Matthew’s mess.

A tap on the door drew their attention. The person on the other side didn’t wait for an answer. She burst through, her chest rising and falling as if she had run, but Matthew wasn’t sure how she would manage that with the three-inch heels that she was wearing.

“I’m sorry to barge in,” she said, “but I need help!”

Monday, June 26, 2023

The Power of Music

 


Music has always had an important role in my life. My family's playlist is eclectic as we all enjoy a variety of music, but most important to me has always been worship music. The lyrical reminder of the promises of God, the praises extolling all of God's goodness and glory, the heart-rending surrender have always spoken to my heart and fixed my mind on Jesus. As I was healing from my depression, God used several songs to pull me out of the pit I was in and to fix my eyes on the truth. 

Look What You've Done by Tasha Layton became my anthem and is still one of my favorite songs today. It spoke to my heart in mighty ways when I was entrenched in lies of Satan telling me that I was useless, that I was unloved, that I was unworthy of God's love and sacrifice. In this song, Tasha Layton confronts lies like that head on with a reminder that God is working in us and through us, that His death and resurrection provide healing, and that God's truth has victory over Satan's lies. The line "You spoke Your truth into the lies I let my heart believe" brought me to tears as I realized that I had bought the lies and it was time to allow God's truth to expel those lies, to break new ground, and heal my wounds. In the process, I give God the glory saying, "Look what You've done, God, to bring about my healing, pulling me out of depression." 

I was on praise team when See a Victory hit me hard. We had sung the song many times in service and it hadn't really affected me. Through rehearsals, I hadn't had any problems at all. In the middle of service, the words became very real to me and I started to cry. I'll admit that a vain part of me hoped I wasn't ugly crying since services are recorded, but mostly I allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the lyrics. My victory over depression was because the battle belongs to the Lord. He is the only reason that I can triumph over the difficulties in life, and I'm thankful for His strength. The bridge hit hard as well. "You take what the enemy meant for evil, and You turn it for good." Satan tried to destroy me with lies. He tried to tear apart my family. He tried to make me question my value and worth. But God turned it for good. He brought me out of my depression and kept my family intact, even helping relationships to be stronger than before. Through my struggles, I can encourage others who are battling the same thing. I'm sure that there are many more ways that God is using this and will use it, and I'm so grateful that God can take such a horrible time in my life and make it into something good and valuable.

Not only is this song a powerful fight song, it's packed with truth. Overcomer reminds us that we can overcome the trials in this life, not through our strength, but because "the One who overcame death is living inside of you". It reminds me of 2 Corinthians 4:17-18. "For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal." I know it doesn't seem 'light' and 'momentary' when we go through it. I struggled with my depression for about three years. It did not feel like a temporary and insignificant struggle, but it was working to prepare me for eternal things. In comparison with eternity, that stretch of time is just a blip on my timeline.

When it felt like I was battling my depression all alone, God was still there. He didn't leave me ever! That's the promise of Not for a Moment by Meredith Andrews. We don't have 'feel' God to know He is there. We don't have to 'hear' Him to know He is here. God promised He would never forsake us, and He never leaves us even for a moment. It doesn't matter what our state of mind is, what we've done, God is there. "In my hurt, at my worst, when my world falls down, not for a moment will You forsake me."

I could probably pick hundreds of songs that God has used in my life, but I'll stop there. I'm so thankful that God created music for us. I'm thankful for the singers and songwriters who can express truth so eloquently. I'm so thankful that the Holy Spirit speaks to hearts in many ways, including through worship. In the darkness, in the struggles, God used music to bring power and strength to my life, to remind me of the truth of His love and presence in my life.

“Scripture quotations are from The ESV® Bible (The Holy Bible, English Standard Version®), copyright © 2001 by Crossway, a publishing ministry of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved.”
 
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