Saturday, December 9, 2023

Christmas Sonata - Chapter 1


 

“I’m going to say it one more time, man. A Christmas album is the best option for you.” Ozi North leaned back in his desk chair looking relaxed, but Matthew knew that the music producer was frustrated with him. After his slip in an interview, his sales had dropped and then continued in a downward trend. To make matters worse, people had started a #boycottMatthewWhittier campaign on social media urging people not to listen to any of his music.

Matthew propped his right ankle on his left knee and sighed. “You know that isn’t going to happen, Ozi. I can’t do it.”

Ozi shook his head. “You are bound and determined to be the martyr in this situation, but this is the mess you got yourself into. I’m offering you a way out, but you refuse to take it.” He leaned forward, placing his elbows on his black desk. “No one even wants to talk about supporting your next album. Your other option is to take a sabbatical and pray to God that one day what you said will be forgiven and forgotten so that you can make music again.”

Matthew ran a hand down his face. A year ago, he had been one of the top selling Christian artists in the nation. Crowded arenas had sung his songs with him in worship. Churches regularly used his songs for their worship time. Now, no one wanted to hear from him at all.

“How long can they hold a grudge? It’s not like I committed some serious sin! All I said was that there was nothing worth celebrating at Christmas.” Even as he repeated it, he didn’t see anything wrong with what he said. Christmas was over-commercialized even within the church. The holiday didn’t even take place during the time of year when Jesus was most likely born. As far as he could tell, that day in December only promoted self, greed, and indulgence.

Ozi sighed, and Matthew took a moment to study the man who had been his mentor and supporter since the beginning of his career. Ozi hadn’t seemed to age a bit in the ten years that they had worked together. His black hair was done in cornrows tight against his scalp. Black glasses framed his brown eyes and he had a goatee. His brown fingers drummed a beat on top of his desk.

“That was only your opening statement,” Ozi reminded Matthew. “If I remember correctly, you started on a tirade that the interviewer had to cut off because you were getting a little too – animated.”

Matthew shrugged. The actual interview was a blur for him, and he had refused to watch it or listen to it after it happened. To be honest, he had thought it would blow over faster than it had.

“I’m entitled to my opinion,” he said folding his arms across his chest.

“You certainly are, but people generally don’t like to be called ‘dumb sheep’ and hear their pastors called ‘wolves’ and ‘false teachers’ for ‘exploiting’ the birth of Jesus for monetary gain.” Ozi looked down at some notes on his desk. “You also said that anyone who bought gifts, had a tree, or listened to Christmas music should question their Christianity, because they were worshiping the gods of commercialism, greed, and comfort.”

While he didn’t remember saying it, Matthew didn’t question that it had happened, because they were thoughts he had often had before. He never went to church during the month of December because of his strong feelings on the subject.

It wasn’t that he didn’t think that the birth of Christ was important. He often read the accounts in the gospels about the nativity, but never in December. It was better to keep it separated from the taint of modern Christmas celebrations.

“It seems like we’re at an impasse,” Matthew finally said. “You think the only way to get back into the good graces of the industry is to do a Christmas album, and I refuse to do that.”

Ozi grinned. “Why not? You could release a new Christmas classic called Why Christmas is Detrimental to Christianity and let’s not forget that great hit, Christmas is for Suckers.”

“I’ve never said that!”

“I believe that was your closing line before the interviewer cut you off,” Ozi said with a chuckle as he looked back down at the transcript. “Yep, here it is. ‘People should wake up and realize that Christmas is for suckers.’ Seems like you were about to go on, but the interviewer had more sense than you did and stopped the interview before you dug your grave any further.”

Matthew frowned. “Okay, I might have gone a little far with that.”

“You think?” Ozi scoffed. “You insulted almost everyone that would support your music. How did you expect them to react? Even the people who tried to support your beliefs did so tentatively and reluctantly because they didn’t want to be seen as supporting you personally after how antagonistic you were. If you genuinely wanted to change the culture, you couldn’t have done it in a worse way.”

“Well, I can’t go back and undo it. I refuse to apologize for my beliefs. There’s no way I’m going to make a Christmas album. So now what?” Matthew felt his stomach twist. He knew that Ozi could very well tell him that he appreciated what he had done, but Glory Records no longer had a place for him there. If it came to that, he didn’t know what his next step would be.

Ozi stood up and came around his desk and perched on the front of it. “I know you well, and I know that you love the Lord dearly. There’s a reason why your music has been so well-received for the past decade. There’s a chance that if you lie low for a little while, you can stage a comeback, but I’d give it at least a year. People have a short memory most of the time.”

“What do I do in the meantime?”

“Write your music like you would normally. You can even use the studio to record it.” Ozi put a hand on Matthew’s shoulder. “You have a God-given ability to express the truths of God in a way that resonates with people. I believe that He has more for you in the future. This is just a little setback. You’ll get through it.”

“Yeah, I can do that.” Matthew was thankful that he had lived modestly and saved most of what he had earned. It seemed like he was going to need that savings for a while.

Ozi smiled. “And if you need a little extra money, you can always teach piano to kids in the neighborhood.”

“I doubt any mothers are going to want me near their children. I might tell them Santa Claus is a myth or that the Easter Bunny isn’t real.” Matthew didn’t even want to get started on that tangent.

With a laugh, Ozi stood up. “Glad to see you can joke about it.”

Matthew got to his feet. Ozi was a good friend, but he was also a busy man. He no doubt had other things to do than deal with Matthew’s mess.

A tap on the door drew their attention. The person on the other side didn’t wait for an answer. She burst through, her chest rising and falling as if she had run, but Matthew wasn’t sure how she would manage that with the three-inch heels that she was wearing.

“I’m sorry to barge in,” she said, “but I need help!”

Friday, October 27, 2023

Pilgrim Passage - Chapter 1


 

May was lost. Not physically. Physically she was standing at the railing of the porch of her mother’s bed-and-breakfast, Holliday Hotel. She stared at the passing cars on the street, but she didn’t know what she was looking for or waiting for. Her hands rested lightly on the white painted wood as she inhaled deeply. The shade was a welcome relief from the sun’s heat. The end of July had seen some welcomed rain, but the temperatures remained scorching.

She had come back home last year after Halloween. Yet she didn’t feel like she was home. Staying with her mom in the apartment below the inn, May was surprised she hadn’t outstayed her welcome. Carol, her mother, hadn’t even dropped a hint about her leaving. Even her sister, Libbie, who could be blunt with her opinions hadn’t mentioned that it might be time for her to find a place of her own.

Which only proved what May already knew. When she had returned, she had come home broken, and her family was trying to shield her from any more pain. The problem was they didn’t really understand her brokenness. She didn’t even really understand it herself. When had things started going so horribly wrong? How had she allowed one man to control so much of her life, given him the power to break her? Libbie would have never allowed it to happen to herself. May was the weaker sister. Maybe a little too trusting. It was something Libbie had complained about in regards to both May and Carol. May usually didn’t mind. She knew that Libbie was trying to protect them, especially after their father died.

Now May wondered what would have happened if she had told Libbie about what was going on. Perhaps Libbie would have ridden in to save the day. Would she even have wanted Libbie to save the day? Not back then, May realized. Back then, May would have fought her and told her butt out and mind her own business. She had been so sure she knew what she was doing. Boy, was she ever wrong!

She sighed and lowered her gaze to her feet. She felt like she was in a holding pattern. A grown woman living with her mom, without a steady income, feeling like even God had withdrawn from her. Everyone she knew seemed to tiptoe around her as if afraid that she would completely shatter at the slightest hint of anything negative.

The red front door opened and without turning around May could recognize the sound of her mother’s footsteps treading softly as if not to spook a wild animal. Maybe that’s what she was – a wounded deer. One corner of her mouth twitched at the thought, but it was gone before a full smile could bloom.

“May, Elena just called. She says that she sold a large house outside of town. The wife was asking about interior decorators. I have their number if you’re interested.” Carol crept nearer, and May noticed the paper wadded in her hand.

Elena Garcia was her mother’s best friend and a realtor in Willow Creek. Any of the jobs that she had gotten since moving back seem to come from either her mom or Elena. She knew they were trying to get her back on her feet, but it felt like charity.

May lifted her gaze and held out her hand. “Sure. I’ll give them a call.”

Carol stuck her hands in her jeans pocket after she handed May the paper. Her eyes studied her younger daughter intently as if trying to find the secret to getting her daughter back to her old self. May didn’t have the heart to tell her mom that she didn’t think her old self would ever return.

“Have you painted anything recently?” The hope in her mom’s voice made May’s stomach clench.

“No, my things are still packed.”

Carol nodded, but her frown deepened. “You know Marissa Vasquez had success with displaying her art at The Master’s Manor. You could see if they would be interested in your watercolors.”

“Maybe.” May didn’t have any desire to paint or create. She enjoyed the few interior decorating jobs she’d had, especially decorating the rooms of Inn Season, but Willow Creek didn’t really have many opportunities for that. She glanced down at the paper in her hand. At least she had one more.

Crushing the paper in the pocket of her shorts, she knew a part of her restlessness stemmed from a knowledge that she could not stay here and do her job. She either needed to move to another city on her own again, or she needed to find another career. She couldn’t live off her mother forever, but she also couldn’t survive on her own in this small town.

“Well, think about it.” Carol went back inside, and May felt bad that she couldn’t offer her mom more hope that she was healing.

May crossed her arms on the railing. The least she could do would be to pull out her art supplies and at least show her mom that she was making an effort. Even at the thought, though, her shoulders felt heavy. She had nothing to offer.

A gleam caught her attention and she turned her head to see a silver Jaguar driving down the road. It was not a car that was typically seen in Willow Creek so she wasn’t surprised to see it pull into the parking lot of Holliday Hotel. The driver wasn’t likely to be a local.

A man stepped out of the car and got his suitcase from the trunk. He had dark sunglasses on, a white shirt opened at the collar with a blue suit. His wavy brown hair looked soft though his five o’clock shadow gave him a rugged look.

May sucked in a breath. Willow Creek had countless resorts and B-and-Bs since it was so close to Yosemite National Park. Why in the world had he chosen Holliday Hotel of all places?

He walked up the steps and only paused for a moment to glance her way. His mouth opened as if to speak, but he changed his mind and continued to the front door.

“Welcome home, Will.” Her words might have been kind, but her tone was biting.

He slipped off his sunglasses, and she met eyes that were a deep blue and fringed with thick eyelashes that would make any girl envious. Any girl but her, she assured herself.

“I wasn’t sure you’d recognize me,” he said. He looked at her as if he were afraid she might attack him. The thought briefly brought a hint of a smile to her mouth.

“Oh, I’d never forget you, Will. It’s hard to with your face plastered on all the magazines and tabloids.” She rolled her eyes.

He looked uncomfortable at the mention of his notoriety. “Well, it’s still been a long time.” He shrugged. “It was possible that you would forget me. I was kind of hoping to come home under the radar.”

May lifted an eyebrow and looked pointedly at his car. “If you wanted to fly under the radar, you should have rented a Honda Civic.” A flush crept up her face at the involuntarily slip that she remembered his first car.

Will’s gaze briefly met hers, but he thankfully ignored her comment as he looked over at the Jaguar. He scratched his chin. “That probably would have been smart. I’ve always struggled with that sort of thing. Put me in a lab or give me a complex math equation, and I’m in heaven. Try to get me to behave like a normal human being around others, and I’m afraid I’m still just as awkward as I’ve always been.”

Somehow his words found a soft spot in her heart, but she ignored the twinge it gave her. “How long will you be here?”

“It depends on how long some business takes.” He looked her over, not in a way that made her feel icky, but as if he was calculating some problem. She smoothed her hand over her windblown hair and tugged at the hem of her t-shirt. “You look . . .” he shook his head narrowing his eyes, “sad.”

Her heart skipped a beat. She had been trying so hard to show him disdain. How was he able to see past that to her heart? It wasn’t fair.

“I’m fine,” she snapped. “You’d better get checked in.”

Will slipped his sunglasses into his breast pocket. Instead of heading for the door he moved towards her. She fought the urge to back up and instead met him toe to toe. His hand lifted, but he put it back down immediately.

“I’m sorry for whatever it is that you are – ‘fine’ with. You don’t deserve it.”

She fought back the tears. Dang this man! He’d been here all of five minutes and had dragged her emotions around as if he had them on a leash!

“What do you know about me, Will? It’s been a long time. You know nothing about me.”

He nodded, but he didn’t look like he believed her. “It has been a long time.”

She folded her arms across her chest and met his eyes daring him to take another step, but deep down she didn’t know how she would handle his next move. He had her so far off-balance that she might slap him – or kiss him – and either one would be extremely inappropriate.

He smiled the lopsided smile that she used to know so well. “I guess I’ll just have to start at square one. It’s never bothered me to start over. It’s the secret to my success.” He turned around and grabbed his suitcase. At the door, he looked back and said, “I’m looking forward to getting to know you, Miss Holliday.”

As the door shut behind him, she made two startling discoveries. The first was that Will Brewster made her feel more alive in five minutes than she’d felt in a year. The second was that she didn’t hate him after all, and that was a dangerous thing.


Wednesday, October 11, 2023

Bring on the Fall Giveaway

 


Hello Readers!


Fall is here and it is the perfect time to curl up with a good book! I have partnered with Celebrate Lit for a giveaway just for you to build up that fall TBR pile!


Here is your chance to win 35 books or a $500 Amazon card to buy a ton of books for yourself in Celebrate Lit's Bring on the Fall Giveaway.


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The event and giveaway is going on now through October 15.

Wednesday, September 27, 2023

Holliday Hotel Book 8


Are you getting excited for the next Holliday Hotel book? This one has been on my mind for a long time. When I began this series back in 2016, I knew that the Thanksgiving book would be May Holliday's story, but I didn't know the journey that May would take to get here. At the end of Independence Hall, I left poor May in a bad place, and I had several of you reach out to me wanting to know what was going on with her and wanting me to make it better. 

In response, I left May sitting while I told Autumn's and Miguel's story in Harvest Hollow. Carol would celebrate Halloween, of course, but she would make it an opportunity to share the light of Jesus. I couldn't skip over that holiday. Besides, May's story was always supposed to be the Thanksgiving book, so she needed to wait. I think it was worth it though. 

After May's long wait, I'm please to announce that Pilgrim Passage will be releasing in October 2023! 

When May Holliday returned to Holliday Hotel, she was broken, discouraged, and questioning her life decisions. Her biggest fear was that her former boss, Terrell Lindsay, would show up in Willow Creek and manipulate her into working for him again. Instead, William Brewster, her old friend-turned-enemy returns to town.

Will is now a successful business owner, well-known in the car industry for the technological improvements his company adds to luxury cars. None of that matters as he comes home to take care of his parents as their health begins to fail. Running into May could give him the friendship that he desperately needs, if only he can get her to forgive him for the stupid things he did when he was young.

But when Terrell Lindsay shows up at Holliday Hotel, Will makes an even bigger blunder. Will tells Terrell that he and May are engaged. With a fake engagement, a new working situation, and taking care of his parents, Will has a lot to handle. Can gratitude be the secret ingredient to making everything work?

Be sure to follow me on Facebook and Instagram for more updates including a book cover reveal which will coming soon! 

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Wednesday, September 13, 2023

Back to School Giveaway

 

Hello Readers!


Kids are back in school and we are all getting back to our routines. To celebrate and to build up your TBR pile for you to use to have some R & R,  I have partnered with Celebrate Lit for a giveaway just for you!


Here is your chance to win 40+ books or a $500 Amazon card to buy a ton of books for yourself in Celebrate Lit's Back to School Multi-Author Giveaway.


Click here to enter: https://promosimple.com/ps/26a15/2023-back-to-school


The giveaway is going on now through September 17.

Tuesday, August 22, 2023

Writing Update


 

I'm so excited for the books that are coming soon! 

First off, book eight in the Holliday Hotel series is in the editing phase right now. I'm hoping to have the edits back by next month so that it can go into the final revision. If all goes well, it should be available in October. I loved writing May's story! It was wonderful to see her grow and heal. This will be the Thanksgiving book in the series, and I'm so grateful for the journey I have been on through this series.

Next, I'm about halfway through writing this year's Christmas novella! After taking a year off, I'm thrilled to be able to provide another Christmas story. I always enjoy writing them, but last year I just couldn't make it work. It's a pleasure to see it coming together, and I am absolutely loving this story and these new characters. As much as I love Holliday Hotel, sometimes it's nice to explore other settings and characters.

Speaking of which, Holliday Hotel is nearly at its end. Next year's book will complete the series with a Christmas story. It's been a ride for sure! I've enjoyed each book and celebrating each holiday, but I don't think I'll ever write a series that long again. I'm sure if you read them back-to-back right now, you'll see some glaring errors because it gets difficult to keep track of everything.

What's next when Holliday Hotel is completed? I'm not exactly sure. I've got two series that are teasing the back of my mind. I'm not sure which one I'll go with first, but I know that God will direct my steps when the time comes.

Be on the lookout for two new books this fall! I can't wait to share them with you! In the meantime, you can follow me on Facebook or Instagram for title and cover reveals, book launch parties, and giveaways. 

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Monday, June 26, 2023

The Power of Music

 


Music has always had an important role in my life. My family's playlist is eclectic as we all enjoy a variety of music, but most important to me has always been worship music. The lyrical reminder of the promises of God, the praises extolling all of God's goodness and glory, the heart-rending surrender have always spoken to my heart and fixed my mind on Jesus. As I was healing from my depression, God used several songs to pull me out of the pit I was in and to fix my eyes on the truth. 

Look What You've Done by Tasha Layton became my anthem and is still one of my favorite songs today. It spoke to my heart in mighty ways when I was entrenched in lies of Satan telling me that I was useless, that I was unloved, that I was unworthy of God's love and sacrifice. In this song, Tasha Layton confronts lies like that head on with a reminder that God is working in us and through us, that His death and resurrection provide healing, and that God's truth has victory over Satan's lies. The line "You spoke Your truth into the lies I let my heart believe" brought me to tears as I realized that I had bought the lies and it was time to allow God's truth to expel those lies, to break new ground, and heal my wounds. In the process, I give God the glory saying, "Look what You've done, God, to bring about my healing, pulling me out of depression." 

I was on praise team when See a Victory hit me hard. We had sung the song many times in service and it hadn't really affected me. Through rehearsals, I hadn't had any problems at all. In the middle of service, the words became very real to me and I started to cry. I'll admit that a vain part of me hoped I wasn't ugly crying since services are recorded, but mostly I allowed myself to be overwhelmed by the lyrics. My victory over depression was because the battle belongs to the Lord. He is the only reason that I can triumph over the difficulties in life, and I'm thankful for His strength. The bridge hit hard as well. "You take what the enemy meant for evil, and You turn it for good." Satan tried to destroy me with lies. He tried to tear apart my family. He tried to make me question my value and worth. But God turned it for good. He brought me out of my depression and kept my family intact, even helping relationships to be stronger than before. Through my struggles, I can encourage others who are battling the same thing. I'm sure that there are many more ways that God is using this and will use it, and I'm so grateful that God can take such a horrible time in my life and make it into something good and valuable.

Not only is this song a powerful fight song, it's packed with truth. Overcomer reminds us that we can overcome the trials in this life, not through our strength, but because "the One who overcame death is living inside of you". It reminds me of 2 Corinthians 4:17-18. "For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal." I know it doesn't seem 'light' and 'momentary' when we go through it. I struggled with my depression for about three years. It did not feel like a temporary and insignificant struggle, but it was working to prepare me for eternal things. In comparison with eternity, that stretch of time is just a blip on my timeline.

When it felt like I was battling my depression all alone, God was still there. He didn't leave me ever! That's the promise of Not for a Moment by Meredith Andrews. We don't have 'feel' God to know He is there. We don't have to 'hear' Him to know He is here. God promised He would never forsake us, and He never leaves us even for a moment. It doesn't matter what our state of mind is, what we've done, God is there. "In my hurt, at my worst, when my world falls down, not for a moment will You forsake me."

I could probably pick hundreds of songs that God has used in my life, but I'll stop there. I'm so thankful that God created music for us. I'm thankful for the singers and songwriters who can express truth so eloquently. I'm so thankful that the Holy Spirit speaks to hearts in many ways, including through worship. In the darkness, in the struggles, God used music to bring power and strength to my life, to remind me of the truth of His love and presence in my life.

“Scripture quotations are from The ESV® Bible (The Holy Bible, English Standard Version®), copyright © 2001 by Crossway, a publishing ministry of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved.”
 
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