I love how God prepares us for things without us even
knowing we’re being prepared. Last year about this time, I gave a devotion to my Bible study group on
giving thanks. One verse in particular stood out to me, and I felt led to make
it my verse for the year. It was 1 Thessalonians 5:18, “in everything give
thanks, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” It struck me how often
I wished that I knew what God’s will was and here I had it in black and white. So
as I began this year, I decided to do 365 days of thankfulness (which turned
into 366 days of thankfulness in February when I realized that it was a leap
year). Everyday on my personal Facebook page, I put at least one thing that I'm thankful for.
What I didn’t know was how God was preparing me for this
year. The verse says “in everything”.
Everything isn’t just the good and lovely things, but it’s also the difficult
and hurtful things as well. I don’t think we have to give thanks for those things, but there should be
something that we can be thankful for even in those moments.
So this year began with my son hurting his knee. As we
prepared to see the orthopedic doctor I prayed for two things: that it would be
abundantly clear what the issue was, and that my (then) 8 year old son would
still be able to be an active boy. As soon as the doctor pulled up the MRI, he
said, “Well, here’s where the ACL should be . . . and it’s not there.” A torn
ACL wasn’t what I was hoping for, but it was abundantly clear, just like I had
asked. He is too young for the reconstruction surgery. He has to be 13 or
14 so they don’t risk damaging his growth plates. So he’s now in a brace – for
the next 5 or 6 years. Again, not what I was hoping for. But, the doctor said
that with the brace he can play on the playground, run around with his friends,
even play in Little League still. God answered my prayers, and I could only be
thankful.
Then around Easter we found out that my grandpa had kidney
cancer. Once again this was not a situation that I was thankful for, yet I
found there were still blessings in that situation as well. My grandpa had said
that he just didn’t want to do chemo. He had seen my grandma go through chemo
when she battled breast cancer and he didn’t want to go through that. Turns out
that kidney cancer does not respond to chemo so that wasn’t even an option.
Also, kidneys are something that can be removed especially if the other one is
functioning – and it was. When they did the surgery, they found that all the
cancer was contained to that one kidney. After he recovered, my grandpa felt
better than he had for a long time. I certainly didn’t want my grandpa to have
to go through that, but I was able to see so many blessings even in that cancer
diagnosis.
Also around Easter, my dad went to the hospital with severe
pain. Turns out he had gall stones and pancreatitis. They had to wait for his
enzymes to level out before they could do surgery, but they were able to do the
surgery lapraroscopically which they weren’t sure they would be able to do, so
we were thankful. He felt so much better as soon as the surgery was done.
Unfortunately, his white blood cell count was climbing which is never a good
sign after surgery. An MRI was done and it was discovered that my dad’s pancreas
had started eating itself. Somewhere between 10-20% of the pancreas was
dead - never to heal. Even in this, the
part of the pancreas that produces insulin was left undamaged – definitely a
blessing.
My dad was in the hospital for 28 days as they tried to
figure things out. During that time, the Awana kids gave him a poster get well
card which hung on his wall. Every nurse, doctor or tech that came in would
stop to read it. Then they’d ask if he was a teacher and he would explain that
he taught the Bible to children. It allowed him to witness to each of them – a
tremendous blessing.
At long last they began to talk about sending him home, but
with a feeding tube. Dad did not want to go home with a feeding tube. For some
reason, they couldn’t get the feeding tube in the right spot. They tried to
position it using X-ray and were still unable to do it. Finally they decided to
just pull it out. When they did, they discovered that the tube had a knot in
it. The doctors were amazed. They had heard about that sort of thing happening,
but had never seen it. They also hadn’t seen the knot on the x-rays. Dad just
said that God didn’t want him to go home with a feeding tube either. Something
he was very thankful for.
My dad soon found out just how sick he had been. Doctor
after doctor told him that they didn’t know how he had survived his illness.
They told him that they were passing his chart around the hospital in amazement
and everyone concluded that he should have died. Yet God spared him. When they
doctors would shake their head in wonder, my dad would simply smile and say,
“God isn’t done with me yet”. I am very thankful that God isn’t done with my
dad here on earth quite yet.
Around August, my dad was back in the hospital with more
pain. His pancreas had developed a pseudocyst that had filled with fluid and
was pushing on his pancreas causing it to be inflamed again. Another surgery
was performed – this time a more invasive one. While my dad was in the
hospital, my sister was admitted to the hospital to deliver her third baby
girl. The hospital staff moved my dad to the same wing as labor and delivery.
He was able to gown up and go visit his new granddaughter. It was a tremendous
blessing for them both to be in the same hospital. My mom particularly was
thankful for the proximity as she would run back and forth between the two of
them. We were also thankful that my dad’s hospital stay was only a week long
the second time.
Maybe there have been issues that made this year less than
perfect, but in each of those things, I was able to see the blessings that God
arrange. I think I would have missed them if I hadn’t been intentionally
looking for things to be thankful for. I probably would have said that this
year was a rough year, a difficult year – maybe even a bad year, but seeing all
the things I had to be thankful for, I can truly say that it has been a blessed
year. God was preparing my heart to have a spirit of thanksgiving all year long
and I was better equipped to get through the difficulties because of it. I hope
that it is an attitude that will remain with me long after this year has ended.
I encourage you to take this month to find something to be
thankful each day. Or maybe God is laying it on your heart to make it a
challenge for next year to daily find something to give thanks for just like He
did for me. I think you’ll find that those difficult situations become more
bearable, and you’ll be surprised at how blessed you really are.
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